days in the life

God helps you realize

 sometimes i question why i’m not as expressive in my feelings and life situations as others are around me. i have relationships that are strong because of what is shared in them. i only wish that it was as easy for me to share in order to contribute equally to the relationship. 

one of the things that dawned on me today was that i don’t share as much as i’d like to or others would like me to because it puts me at a risk to disappoint people. 

the truth is, which we all know, including myself, is that i don’t have everything figured out (reminding myself of this while i’m typing). i could feel one way right now and a different way tomorrow. and i’m learning that, that is ok. 

i know this is natural and can be handled differently. so this is to me working on how to express myself with out sounding like what i’m saying is definite. 

thank you Jesus for working on this with me. and thank you family and friends for putting up with my roller coaster of emotions, decisions, and changes. it means the world.

cheers